Two weeks ago I received herceptin, no more chemo which is good my body can finally heal. Not too much reaction just felt sick to my stomach otherwise doing okay. My legs and ankles are swollen with water so working on that until last Sunday I blew my left knee out.
It has been a week about my knee the brace is off I am finally walking without using crutches or a walker. But my legs remain weak probably from the chemo still. I have my mom and husband supporting me and giving me encouragement each day to get up and heal. And my facebook friends and family who continue to do that as well. I pray to god for help, sometimes I feel he does not answer and that is hard and I cry. I need to be strong so much. I have to.
I have some regrets in life, of course we all do, I regret not having children, forgiving some people when we fight. Lately, I just let things go when I get hurt from someone. I figure if they want to be in my life embrace it. If someone does not just let it go. But I have learned that you have to embrace those in your life now and enjoy you have to.
I hope my husband never regrets anything with me, he is such a wonderful man. Someone who I admire who is so strong and I feed off his strength each day. Is it wrong to miss him so much during the day it hurts? I do. I feel lost when he is not around, crazy huh but it is true.
Next week back on herceptin, so moving right along Doing exercises to strengthen my knee so I know one day at a time and hang in there. I have to one day at a time.
I love my family my sister, her husband, my nieces and my mom and husband with all my heart. Thank you for the strength. And my true friends thank you as well......I will make it through one day at a time. All the cards I have gotten I keep and read for support so thank you so much for all of that. And my other strength is I am getting well not only for me, but dad I love you. I promised you before you died that I would get better and I will.
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