Well I have not written in a while a lot going on, so instead of finishing my story in the past which I can get back to, I will let you know what is going on now. You always fear that cancer will come back, but you live your life because hey why should you just sit there and be miserable.
I got myself really sick, I guess I should say, everyone kept telling me to go to the doctor but I kept putting it off. Once I finally did, things just went so fast. Nobody could figure out what was wrong, it went from pneumonia to kidney infection and then all of a sudden a blood clot in the lung. I was hospitalized for two days given antibiotics and poked so many times my arms are covered with bruises.
Sure you get frustrated, especially when I got admitted a lot of information was not given to me. I was sitting in my hospital bed and someone comes in to give me a surgery consult. ?????????? They did a CT Scan of my chest to check for the blood clot and nothing was found and everything was good. Well, apparently a lymph node under the left arm is swollen and suspicious. My heart just dropped and I was told once I get out I will have to have a surgery consult and have it removed for biopsy. Okay well you can get over it a bit but you still get scared.
Then I get sent for a ultrasound, which I had no idea of, My husband and I just got frustrated that nobody was talking to us. I went down and they were checking for damage to my organs. Apparently, what I got was septicemia which is very very bad blood infection.
I was sitting there after I came back and resting and my husband went home to get me some things. The doctor came in. Your ultrasound showed lesions on your liver which can be from a cancer spread. I just stared at her. I have had no biospy yet but everyone thinks I have cancer already. Well of course she probably said other things but my mind went blank. I do remember asking her to call my oncologist to tell him what is going on. He is one doctor who I trust and wanted him to be involved. I called my husband and cried. I was sitting there and one of the nurses came in and sat with me. I just could not stop crying. I felt lost, and I felt why me, what have I done so wrong to deserve all of this again.
My husband came back, and we cried. It was hard. We just had to get it out and we had to be strong.
Well the next day I got released with follow-up in ten days. I went in and saw my doctor and you know the funny feeling is I never really felt that bad through the whole thing, just tired. My labs were starting to climb again. She decided to send me to the ER again for more work up. More pokes, IVs, it just hurts. Everyone was concerned with my heart rate being high. Well when you tell someone they may have cancer what do you expect? Everytime the doctor came in my room I could feel my heart drop. Thinking what now!
In between this, my oncologist called and decided he wants the liver biopsy done first so everything was canceled with the surgeon and this was in the works to be done.
After being there for over six hours and given fluids, getting another CT Scan of the chest and giving blood and urine samples well...........I hear we are puzzeled and the other doctors suggest you just go home. Monitor your temps and talk to the nurse in the morning. Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We went straight to my moms house and went out to eat I was so hungry did not eat all day.
Well had the call with the nurse and everything was good. No Fevers, nothing. Then I get the call from my doctor follow up labs and appointment on Friday. AH!!! So went to the lab again for more poking....blood cultures, cbc, liver test, ua.
Go in to see my doctor in the morning we were there for over four hours. Testing my blood pressure, I also checked things at home which I should say was quite lower than being there. Orthostatics, my oxygen levels. She consulted another doctor, who was suggesting a CT of the Abdomen. So, we were waiting to see what we had to do. Since I did not spike any temps and my blood pressures and pulse were lower at home, that test was canceled. The figured it out to be anxiety...Ha, I could have told them that.
I got released, and now am awaiting the liver biopsy which will be done on Monday at 11:00 am. I have a feeling it will be a long month but all you can do is take one day at a time and just be happy.
I have been getting a lot of prayers and support and they mean so much. I am so happy for all my friends and family who are there for me. My husband who tells me it will be okay. And you know what it will be okay whatever this test shows I will face it and face it strong and not give up.
