Thursday was Herceptin day

I really did not feel like going on Thursday felt kind of sad.  But I made it through and did it.  Still have some affects from the chemo, weak legs, I ended up getting some problems with my nails and toes nails.  Some stomach problems too. But, things are coming together slowly.  It has been three months since my last treatment so I know my body is slowly coming back to normal.  Even my hair is growing!!!

My knee seems better but I still take it slow.  It gets sore after walking for a while but it is working.  :)

I take each day now as it comes, and be strong and try to move on slowly.  I miss my dad a great deal but I know he is looking down on me from heaven. 

I do not seem to have too much reaction from the herceptin which is great.  The extra water weight I gained over 20 pounds is gone now and I feel great.  On August 9 i get my tumor markers checked again and my echo for my heart to make sure things are going okay.  So everyone pray and will be letting you know.  I think maybe I can rest easy once I find out.  All I know is I have to take one day at a time. 

Thanks to all the support from my family and friends I will continue to fight and never give up.  Roel I love you!

Herceptin was on Thursday

Well I had my herceptin again, does not seem to bother me which is good.  My leg swelling has gotten much better which is good, I  had almost over 10 pounds of water weight.  Still dealing with my leg weakness which is hard, I get frustrated when I cannot do much.  And also my knee, but it has been three weeks so I keep telling myself to be patient.   Being patient is hard let me tell you, but sometimes you just have to go with it.  Also my nails, are very discolored. It makes me feel ugly at times but all shall pass as they say. They say it can take up to six months for the chemo to come out of your system.  /Well five more to go.....

There is a lot of stress with all of this, stress sometimes I wish it would go away but talking it out helps me so much.

Today I am actually lost for words, just want things to come together slowly and I know they will.  Life was never made to  be easy that is for sure.  I just wish my hurt in my heart could sometimes disappear. I cry and it just never makes it go away.  One thing I did learn tears are very healing to the soul and it helps me heal in my heart in a certain way.  People worry when they see me cry,  but hey sometimes it just has to come out.  You know what it is okay......

I pray for strength and for my worries to be lifted. One day those worries will hopefully be gone.

The love of my friends and family are my strength, my hope....I will never give up.......