Chemo Treatment

On March 17, treatment number 3.  Got good news from the doctor he said my tumor markers are down from 400 to 200 so the chemo is working.  Well it better be! You go through so much, your body just aches and for it now to work holy cow. 

The following day I was just so sick, my stomach would not settle at all.  I was so sick up all night.  When I finally got some relief on Saturday morning I was able to sleep but boy did it wipe me out.  You just never know what you will go through with this chemo.  It seems each time it is different.  You get frustrated that is for sure.  You dont want to be a burden but you just have no choice but to ask for help.  It took about four days for my stomach to calm down and then the body aches start.  Every joint in your body hurts even your fingers.  But I get up each day and function, not going to get down over this at all. 

It is wednesday today still hurt, but got up and did what I could in the house and will rest.  I am not going to give up you cannot. If you just sit there and let it control you it will win and cancer is not going to win.  I also joined a support group online which is great.  I have talked to several women and you know what my problems seem meek compared to them. 

One woman told me cancer is just a word, do not let it win.  Just be thankful each day you can wake up and see the sun.  It is true.  I am thankful for so much. I will never give up.  Thankful for all the prayers and support it helps me so much and makes me stronger every day.

Getting through the chemo side effects

I have to say that this time it is not easy.  I have so many side effects which are different to deal with .  Sure I lost my hair, but the rashes I get are awful.  It actually went on my face and eyes.  But, I stay positive and keep moving.  I just cannot let this beat me in anyway. 

I celebrated my birthday a few days before, and I sat back and thought I am 45 and have cancer. Wow, sometimes I keep thinking it is not true that I will wake up but then the reality sets in and I see it is true.  I get scared but with so much support I make it through. 

Next week is chemo week so back for the fight again.  I will keep moving and beat this thing and I will get my life back.